forced to use words but that is a good thing,(as they say)
Relaxation an unthinkable...of course this is phrase from something
I wrote in the nineties,before Jeanette died, (in the nursinghome) 
At a time when her Alzheimer's only got worse,a steady worsening,
from a distance even this is a wretched sentence..

Belated: the eclipse of the moon,sometime past by now,I saw through
my southwindow...It genuinely appeared unusual...I don't believe I had
seen that color in the moon before; I had a good position from which
to view this event.